Exhale so you may Inhale

photo by Suse Sternkopf, used with permission

It feels like it is time for things to be at an end.

Don’t you think that the world seems a little weary lately? Perhaps it is simply because I am in school, and we are bearing down into finals season of the Spring quarter. In the midst of a flurry of end-of-year and beginning-of-summer activity, many of the faces I see around me seem sallow, overtired, and under nourished. We’re living a life that in reality is far from drudgery, yet we slog about as if we haven’t seen the sun in months.

But it also feels like that moment before a deep inhale. It also feels like that moment, just as a bird is leaping into flight where their bodies dip down as if gravity might actually win, a fraction of a moment before they soar.

This is the slow relief transition can take. Sometimes change is scary and threatening. Sometimes it simply takes longer to come about than we want it to.

I am looking forward toward so very much that will be happening over the next several months. At some point it is bound to feel manic, but I look forward to it nonetheless. I actually like seasons like this. In their own way, they are a thrilling part of life. It is almost tangible how the world seems to gather itself up like an old woman trying to rise from a deep sofa; you’re not quite sure it can happen, but then there she is standing confidently.

Do you like seasons like this? How do you feel about change? Has change been a polite friend or a stern foe in your life? Does this feel like a season of change in your corner of the world? Or is it a time of rest?

Post Scipt:
If you haven’t noticed yet, I am big on questions. I think we ask them more than we realize, and don’t ask them enough. Questions are an undercurrent toward how we live our lives. We use them to frame our perspectives, to frame our realities. So yeah, I ask questions. But most of the time, I don’t mean for them to be rhetorical.

Advertisements

3 thoughts on “Exhale so you may Inhale

  1. I love change. I love looking at things in a fresh, new way. When things become stagnant or rote I grow bored quickly. I do, however, like patterns, just so long as they are not too constricting.

    I like your imagery of exhaling and inhaling. For me, sometimes, that moment of exhale at the transition into change can be like that second when you crest the top of a rollar coaster and think “what on earth am doing?” But by that point, there’s really no going back.

  2. Yes, most definitely a season of change. Just finished teaching another term, and we will welcome another baby here any day. I am in that final exhale when most of my breath is carbon dioxide right before I begin to inhale again – bring on the oxygen.

    And change is a good thing – or so I have always seen it. A big change is a new opportunity to grow, or to reveal growth that has begun. Whenever I’ve moved, for instance, I’ve asked myself what it is that God has been shaping in me and then prayed and worked intentionally for that shaping to be clear in my character. One move it was: be a man of integrity; another, be a more responsible husband; another, stop worrying about grades and performance so much. These are all things that God had been doing prior to the big change, but the change gave me opportunity to take a big leap forward. Instead of being a man struggling with integrity, I became a man of integrity who sometimes fails. Just like a move right after our wedding – instead of being Josh Cramer and Grace Fisher, we knew ourselves and everyone else knew us as Josh and Grace Cramer. So, change is opportunity.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s